Woah! First few week of school and already so much is happening! I can barely grab a hold of my life.
Went to my very first Speech & Debate tournament this Saturday. It was a very interesting experience and good practice for my speaking skill. Fun time but also meaning wasted half of my weekend.
History outline don't stop, do they? One after another, trying to suck in every little bit of energy left in me. I am still not adopted to having outline due on Tuesday...why not Friday??! Life would be lot easier!
AP Physic...I have no word for you...I don't know why I didn't put you first on my list to study, I don't worry about the science that much...either because I have lot of other stuff to worry about or because the teacher is not making me care. I felt like not learning much in class, but requires my own time outside class to study which I have none to offer. I didn't even study for the unit test, which is unlike me! I became a procrastinator! I am so lucky I still have an A in the class.
Math...Such simple concepts of algebra, and I failed...I prided myself of my math skills and my logical senses, but this chapter P (P=preview) defeated me...I got the only 2nd B on my math test. Need to dig deep and understand the concepts.
English, PE, Chinese...I will might still live...if not for the club I am trying to start!!! Why did I brought this upon me??! So much stress, effort, work on my side and created nothing! NOTHING but CONFLICT! Because my lack of experience in leadership, I made mistakes one after another, making matter bad to worse. I gotta need to work on it...I felt so helplessly founding and running the club, while others have no problem at all. WhYYYY?!
If all these are not enough, I still brought a student member application for state board of education...Who am I to kidding that I will make it to the final round? WHO? Why? So much effort and thinking and help I am needing and the time I can't afford. I worry those just as much as my club which I should place behind my academic life!
I still have other stuff and goals I want to reach: tennis practice, be more proficient in coding, study the SAT, start my science research, read books, watch news, reorganize my room, and the list goes on and on...
Since I have chosen the Busy Avenue to ride on, then I will try my best to make the experience enjoyable. I need to take a step back, take a deep breath, close and reopen my eyes, and march it forward with all the passion, energy, and optimism I can master to breath, to live, to achieve~
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